aku ta decide agy sama ada nk trus private o x.
Sebab private.
mgkin aku ny jenis org yg susah nk terima hakikat kot.
lambat. lembap.
entah ape tah lagi ayt haram yg ade.
dalam setahun 2 bulan 2 mggu dalam relationship ny;
first time aku dapat rasa frust menggiler;
sial btol frust tu;
sebok jea nak sepak-sepak hati aku ny;
tapi untuk bencikan dia susah betol;
xde sape penah tawu aku n dia da putus;
break off;
5ogos.
lepas sehari aku daftar poly;
tension sgt.
die tu dah mcm xpenah kenal aku;
cara sembang;
mesej;
call;
babi betul;
hanya semata2 pompuan sial tah mane tah;
aku yg giler setia ny sikit pown x dhargai;
aku mang xpat terima;
mimpi2 sebelum ni serius jadi kenyataan.
buat aku jadi mudah bebal dalam certain situation.
mudah betul dia lupakan utk sesuatu yg dia sendiri bina, sama - sama jaga;
rase betul2 bodoh biler terlampau percaya;
sengal;
family; kwn; sppu;
xde sape tawu;
rabu ptg;
aku decide blik umh;
xthn duk umh sewa tkot2 t sumer org pelik ngn perubahan aku yg mcm bodo time tu;
n.
entah bler aku xngat;
dia balik kat aku.
even susah nk pecaya;
tapi betul;
dia ade dengan aku;
dia masih dengan aku;
biar sekarang giliran dia utk pertahankan.
“Im not supposed to love you, Im not supposed to care, Im not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. Im not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...Im sorry I cant help myself, Im in love with you. Plus, I pinch myself cause I dont believe its true, that someone like you still loves me, leaving that bitch to be back with me along with you”